Fuckin' memory

How do u feel when u think u have no more feeling towards something that u intend to forget. How do u feel when the thought have failing u. That in reality u still have the feeling. The feeling u hate, the feeling u despise. How to erase it, how to diminish it, and how to forget about it. Not knowing how is a very painful condition. The contradiction is killing me. The feeling is eating me piece by piece. The pain of unable to fulfill is crutching me. How the hell am I going to forget about u if u keep flashing before my eyes. Am I suppose to hate u? But u don't have anything for me to hate. But u don't have anything that I wouldn't like. How am I suppose to erase those feeling that keep bubbling up whenever I see u. SHIT!!!!!!