I'm a Batwoman

There you go....I expelled the truth of me.....hahahaha
Actually, it's only a minor problem happens to me recently.....I have no idea why I become like this. It's been 2 weeks now, I can't sleep at night. When the world succumbs to the blackness of the night, I'm wide awake. And when the early morning lights touches the lid of the world, I'm starting to doze off.

It's troublesome for me, I was supposed to work early in the morning, but because of this problem, I began my activities in the middle of the day, I've become a batwoman.....hahhahahaha....I got many complaints because of this. A friend of mine told me that I should cut the habit in order to go back to my normal hours.....the recipe is the cold medicine with sleeping ingredients in it.....well I'll try it tonight...hope it works

If it's not working then I guess I should find another job for I'll get scolded for my late and the worse is got fired....hahahahha...all trouble because of sleep in the wrong time

SANCTUARY

Yeah...my room is my sanctuary...little room but cozy, filled with everything I love the most in this world: comics, books, bed and coffe for sure....I locked my self in for 4 days, I didn't go for work, I went passive in socializing, I was like a priest or monk in a quiet time.

It was a quiet moment for me....I tried to explore the meaning of my life, how far did I go all this time, what are my achievements??? And I come to a result that I haven't done much in life that can satisfy myself.....and there's the question.......WHY

Perhaps, that's because I'm not involving my self too much in other people's life.....but that's just me, I'm a bit individualistic with a "not bother" attitude.....is it wrong??? Last night my housemate told me her life story, about how she felt everyone is using her and that she can't ever say 'no' to anyone.....because of those, she sometimes felt that she is a loser....but I told her she wasn't a loser, she helped people a lot in many ways, her achievements are everywhere in everyone. My exact words are," you have left marks even little marks in other people's life, right now maybe you haven't see anything, but wait for another 10 years, people will acknowledge you as their helper, and they will be happy for your being in the world"

Isn't nice? you're not a success person in work, you're not clever ebough to become a great scientist, you're not rich, but everywhere you go there are people who will know you and telling you that you are his/her firend......that makes your life meaningful, for me it is....

I felt that in this year of 2006, I have no improvement. I got new friends...yeah...but still I got no "friends" ... I'm still with my "not bother" attitude. I let my friend down last week, I really felt guilty, I said sorry but there's no forgiving from my friend....hmmmmm....maybe I should change my attitude, for I still haven't found a friend that I could trust and share my burden.....

But hey, we're all human, we're all born alone, if we have to live alone then we cannot complain, right? U can complain actually, adress it to your MAKER..... hahaha see if HE replies